This painting is a top view of the tension before an eruption. It is an emotional illustration of what it feels like to smooth over and contain volatile information. You can see the tension lines that are threaded together. This is the willpower or strong will to contain what is underneath the dark parts.
Everyone has their own recording of their own story deep deep inside. I don’t see it in a chronological way. I see it as facets that sparkle, ever changing and moving like wind chimes in the wind. Sometimes a storm, when things are really changing in a life. Sometimes a medium breeze, when life is just chugging along. Sometimes, like in the twilight of a lifetime, the breeze slows down and there is only an occasional clang of the wind chimes.
My favorite part of any design process is the initial brainstorm. I just try to get as many ideas on paper as possible. The key here is to work in an "open mode" where everything is possible. Quantity, not quality. ~Some of my worst ideas come out when I am in open mode~(said in a bragging tone).
I vacillate between wanting to communicate to the masses and wanting to be authentic and just do what I see, not worrying about the communicating part. There is a fine line between the two, and that is where I've decided to put my energy these days. I stand up close to the canvas, being as free and authentic as my mind lets me, then I walk backwards and look at the painting, imagining how others would see it, or how it communicates something. Actual proximity to the image being created is as powerful as fluctuations in mindset.
That moment in time where we decide to really go for it, and live life to the fullest. It’s the moment that we accept that we have flaws, but we don’t care about that anymore. At that particular moment, this is what it would actually look like. Rays of bright color flashing outward from the details. The yellows and oranges around the edges are those colors, and the detail area in the middle is where this emanates from. That detailed area in the middle represents the single personality. The blue-green on the bottom right is just how it is anchored in time. It is where the light comes from.