Many times as I finish a painting after months of layering and doting upon it, I feel like it is just the beginning of exploring a visual concept. In the past I may have revisited a similar idea, but it was more subconscious or more by happenstance. I had yet to try to do many paintings under one main concept. This is why I decided to paint a whole series where I could iterate many visual ideas on one concept.
As I reflect on this process of pairing a song with an artwork I am really quite energized by the complexity. Music is abstract just like my paintings, and when you are able to see and hear the same concept, it is really thrilling. The music is a language just like color and form are a language. The words are the thing that binds them together and solidifies the concept to be communicated.
Life, as a projection of our mind, is meant to crumble. It was never meant to last. Life is a series of detours and beautiful interruptions. It makes for a great story of our lives! We don’t actually want to zag along in life, we want the universe to put a little zig in our zag.
I started this painting on a day I felt particularly rejected as a mother. For as high as my pride and love goes up, it can also come down and make me feel defeated, and really at odds with my little people. The steadfastness of motherly love never changes, but the everyday dance of expectation, joy, pride, connection, and basic “am I doing this right?” sensation is there.